hiccup

With all the stress from school I completely forgot about something as silly as my broken heart. During the stress with school came the amazing distractions that only Finals can bring, and with graduation right around the corner: nothing else mattered. After finals came the freedom. my life. my friends. much needed unwinding and fun.

Thursday afternoon up until the minute before i fell asleep late last night, my life was in dream mode. i had everything (dont get me wrong, i still do have everything) but for some reason, some unknown sneaky reason my mind decided to remind me about that silly little thing i refer to as my broken heart.

I honestly can't pin point what triggered that memory. maybe it's the holidays? maybe it's the fact that i've done an eloquent job at treating the entire situation like it never existed?.. i can't say; but what i can say.. because it must be said otherwise the phrase will bother me is: I MISS HIM. i miss his hugs and the way he'd kiss my forehead. i miss the way my bed looked with him in it.

this is one tough cookie. this is just a silly heart break. this is a major situation to try and forget. this was my first taste in love. i've been more open to dudes texting me and in my drunken stooper found these guys entertaining. but im bored with them already... i never intended to establish anything. honestly, i'm in no mood to get to know anyone..

i'm giving THIS feeling, this hiccup, this little bump in the road an hour to get out of my system. Saved By The Bell, i'm looking at you for utter amazement and distraction.

Hang In There, Baby

Even if things get heavy, we'll all float on.

my post-it collage smack dab with all my Studio designs/images/references.

"Road to closure, Volume 12? Poor bastard."

I have a good feeling about this week -presumably, we only have class until Tuesday since this Thursday is Thanksgiving but that's something I need to double check. My weekend started on Wednesday with plans to spend a long awaited night in Austin with 2 of my closest friends.

The plan was Wednesday/Thursday -weekend, Friday-Sunday -homework. My plan worked out pretty well and I completely finished my design for Studio. To help my design process flow I watched movies this weekend (a movie playing in the background ALWAYS helps me concentrate for some reason, the same can be said for music, and it's nuts when i have a movie on mute with music playing in the background). I focus best with several forms of stimulants going on.

With excellent movies playing in the background and designs coming together I grew more and more optimistic. I'm best when all I focus on is school. I even treated myself to a new nail polish -a very happy pink titled Thats Hot! Pink by OPI. I had my Betsey Johnson "C" necklace on to remind me of who I was and that "C" will always mean Cortez. I even started writing a lot more in my journal. Yes, things are definitely looking up. Here is what helped me get through this extra long weekend:

Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist

really great movie. i LOVE movies that seem to take place in the course of a night or a short span of time. plus it has a very great soundtrack.

Rushmore

one. of. the. best. films. ever. Max is a dreamer, I can relate. A very close second to The Life Aquatic on my "favorite wes anderson films" list.

Little Miss Sunshine

I JUST discovered the soundtrack and it's amazing. DeVotchKa can bring on the happy unlike anything I was expecting. The movie's not bad either.

The Royal Tenenbaums

I love how heartbreaking this movie is, in a very abstract way it reminds me of my entire family. Royal is my favorite and definitely someone worth noticing. He reminds me a lot of one of my uncles. I guess that's why I feel for him. I was his Richie growing up.

Flight of The Conchords, Season 1

I saw season 2 for a while but was pretty disappointed. I felt they wrote their songs for the show rather than write their episodes based off their songs (which is the impression I got from Season 1). The show is great and it's unreal how attracted I am to Jemaine. I mean,he's tall, wears glasses, dark hair, dark eyes, looks a bit burly and has some pretty awesome hands (yes, i look at hands a lot)

I also had plenty of Karen O and the kids, DeVotchKa, Phoenix, and Kings of Convenience to help along the way. I still haven't considered my weekend over and have a few hours to kill before class. I'm thinking Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy while I work on more homework? Yes. sounds like a plan.